for the past month...

...we have been praying over our adoption situation. We prayed at home and adoration and read books about aligning our will with God's Will. We are changing scenery here...new country, same need! God is holding the compass!!

While I am sure...

...that waiting is both noble and virtuous. I am really not in this to adopt good habits, I am really doing this to adopt some kids. I can work on those other virtues all day for the rest of our lives together: waiting for them to get in the car, waiting at the doctor's office, waiting for them to get their pajamas on...

It's not funny. I'm not laughing.

We have been in this process for more than two years now. Now all we get to do is our endless piles of paperwork again. And pay more money. And deal with other unforeseen complications. Wouldn't it be great if we were waiting because we were not needed? This is sick! I know there are millions of children who can not heal because they are living with open emotional wounds in limbo land. Enough of this beauricratic horror. I think of all the families who have quit because "God must be shutting the doors." NO, people! God is not shutting the doors. God does not want these children left as orphans. It is ugly. It is not funny. I am not laughing, but I am not quitting either.